Mood swings

I don’t know how to describe my day, it is neither a sad day or happy day. I had extreme mood swing today. I was so depressed, depressed until I don’t want to talk to anyone and just staying in my own world. Another minute, I got so hyper and can discuss movies with my friends. Another minute, I got back to depressed again. I doubt that I got depression. However, I am tired to check out that on any healthy website.

Yesterday was hmmm..emotional trauma? I back from school with a pretty mood and when I stand on the weight scale, I got so angry, frustrated, sad and at last I thrown my glasses to the table, run into the room and start crying. My mum came in later and start scolding me ” why you are crying? your mum is going to die, is it? bla bla bla bla ” After that, she went on for her nap (=.=|||) Sweat, right? However, it is okay for me because that’s the way she treat throughout the 11 years. Once I cry, she start nagging. That’s why I hardly cry and really need much effort on managing my emotions. Example like at home I scolded by her and really sad, really want to cry but I can’t, arrived church or other places, I need to force myself to smile. I am not happy as you thought I am, seriously! Especially you have a mother that really want you to be a strong girl in all aspects including emotional.

Sigh..